Pointless: without force, meaning, or relevance
I have figured out a couple of things about parenting a child with a chronic illness. Just a couple.
- It's pointless to think about the things your child might not be able to do in the future.
- It's pointless to wonder when the next hospitalization will come..
Yet I do think about these things.
- Today, as my teens left for a 4 day hiking trip, I wondered if my 5 yo would ever be able to go on a trip like that.
- I found an old hospital-bag in my closet yesterday while searching for the boys' winter clothes. Should I pack a bag for this winter?
When does wondering cross the pointless threshold?
I've come up with an addendum to the definition of pointless, if maudlin violin is playing in the background of my mind, I've reached self-indulgent pointlessness.
Wondering if my 5 yo will ever be able to go on a 4 day hiking trip? - definitely pointless.
Wondering if I should keep a hospital bag packed? - that's called planning.
If I want to wallow in self-indulgence I might as well eat chocolate because I don't even like violin music. That's why my children take piano.