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Yesterday, I got to free roll quite a bit. My main thought was survival. I watched myself, with brilliant instincts, move in all the wrong directions and in all the wrong ways. Repeatedly. I wanted to give up.
Why did I feel defeated? Because I tapped out?- I'm used to tapping out.
Moving wrong, unfortunately, is nothing new to me. Moving wrong, being drenched in sweat and feeling exhausted aren't new to me either.
I went home thinking that I've always been a Jack-of-All-Trades-but-Master-of-None; so why am I fighting to change that when I'm about to turn 50? Ridiculous. Lots of other negative self talk ensued. Then came the whining.
Sometimes, and it's rare, when I'm free-rolling fight or flight turns to flight but it's kind of impossible to fly when you are caught in s-mount or side control or mount or even with a really weird kimura. Thwarted flight is the epitome of powerlessness and defeat.
In my history class today one of my students read this quote; attributed to Constantine the Great, "Thinking is the great enemy of perfection, The habit of profound reflection, I am compelled to say, is the most pernicious of all the habits formed by civilized man."
I think he was talking about Jujitsu. In other words; it's time to think less, and wash and dry my gi for another round.
Yesterday, I got to free roll quite a bit. My main thought was survival. I watched myself, with brilliant instincts, move in all the wrong directions and in all the wrong ways. Repeatedly. I wanted to give up.
Why did I feel defeated? Because I tapped out?- I'm used to tapping out.
Moving wrong, unfortunately, is nothing new to me. Moving wrong, being drenched in sweat and feeling exhausted aren't new to me either.
I went home thinking that I've always been a Jack-of-All-Trades-but-Master-of-None; so why am I fighting to change that when I'm about to turn 50? Ridiculous. Lots of other negative self talk ensued. Then came the whining.
Sometimes, and it's rare, when I'm free-rolling fight or flight turns to flight but it's kind of impossible to fly when you are caught in s-mount or side control or mount or even with a really weird kimura. Thwarted flight is the epitome of powerlessness and defeat.
In my history class today one of my students read this quote; attributed to Constantine the Great, "Thinking is the great enemy of perfection, The habit of profound reflection, I am compelled to say, is the most pernicious of all the habits formed by civilized man."
I think he was talking about Jujitsu. In other words; it's time to think less, and wash and dry my gi for another round.
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